Posted twice today.
Called the girl of my life.
I was super happy to hear her voice.
But in the end, I was scolded by her.
I was trying to act a brave front , infront of her and yet I failed. I teared.
As what the entire family of mines wants and expected, I can finally fullfill their dreams of sending me to cananda.
All u all want , is me, to take over the companies next time.
Although I have gain the fame and statues, but I have lost badly in love.
Its all u all want.
Being force to do the things you do not want, it's a terrible feelings.
I have been treating her as bad as possible.
I knew that she wont be online-ing as she is busy with her schoolwork , therefore I can post with a relieved heart.
By the time she saw this post, she would have forgetton about me, and I would have leave far from singapore.
And i sincerely hope , you will understand.
Althought I am heartbroken that she hates me to the max now, but afterall, I would have let her go sooner or later.
This would hurt her more , if I am the original Benjin that treat her good.
I am leaving , and me myself have no idea of when I would return.
I dont want to waste any of her youth.
She is nice. She is adorable.
She dont suites someone who has a complicated background, a complicated life and a complicated himself.
I choose and decided to hold you as tight and stress you that much as possible, so that I can make you think that I do not give u any freedom at all in this relationship.And gradually , you will have the urge to longed for freedom and want to let go as soon as possible.
I managed at last to do that, and as expected, you do urge for the freedom u long wanted.
I am glad. Instead of making you sad after the break up, I made you relieved and feels much more relaxed after we have break up.
In love with a condition that pays with a high price.
I dont meant to treat u that bad.
I got no choice.
I really dont wish to see you sad.
I felt lonely.
I got no one else to share my troubles with.
All I could do , was to blog my troubles out.
This is what hidden deep inside me that I wanting to say.
To:
My dad- Dont smoke too much, its bad for your health. And dont worry, I wont disappoint you. I will try my best to do well in everything.
My mum- Dont overwork too much work, your heart is weak. You are my forever my favourite Mami ever. You never fails to pick me up from my failure when I am sad. I will miss you as well as your cooking.
My sis - Dont always go pub and club dao late late ah. I will worry de u noe. If can, live for the fullest. Make your real love comes only once, and not twice.
My fat fat aunt / relatives- Thanks everyone. You all have been doting on me alot.
My yi ma - I hope that my cousin would treat you much much better, and would not always ask you for money. You mentioned that you will give me part of your assets, but i just want to say that, I dont need anything from you, I just want you to live happily.
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Javier, Jace, Val, jaymus - Promised to be good kids and grow up healthily all rite . When I am back from Cananda, I hope that I can hear u all call me biao jiu.
My secondary sch frens- Thanks for all the playful and cute memories that I spend together with u guys.
My piano/ swimming /school teacher - Thanks for passing your knowledge to me , and guides me as a mentor once
My music rehearsal teacher- Although I have known you for week, but sincerely, u are nice.
Classmates( W47L) - I would not forget that we are so noisy till the whole lift is filled with out voices. Study hard guys !
Xinman - You are still my only one. I will love you always and forever. Dont overtired yourself ok. Winning is not important, what is more important is that U have tried your best afterall. Do remember to cover your blanket when its cold at nite. No matter what, just smile, and your day would be bright and warm.
Je suis désolé que je ne pouvais pas marcher tout le voyage avec vous. It means, Sorry that I cannot walk the entire journey together with you.
To Myself - Stay strong !
I just want to said that, I would miss you guys.
I cant feel the sunlight anymore.
Benjin has been dead since today.
Totally dead.
HIM Benjin Lin Single Wants You dont need to know what he WANTS The DONT WANT You dont need to know what he DONT WANT He DONT LINK anyone His Past Tense
January 2009
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Saturday, January 23, 2010
Posted twice today. Called the girl of my life. I was super happy to hear her voice. But in the end, I was scolded by her. I was trying to act a brave front , infront of her and yet I failed. I teared. As what the entire family of mines wants and expected, I can finally fullfill their dreams of sending me to cananda. All u all want , is me, to take over the companies next time. Although I have gain the fame and statues, but I have lost badly in love. Its all u all want. Being force to do the things you do not want, it's a terrible feelings. I have been treating her as bad as possible. I knew that she wont be online-ing as she is busy with her schoolwork , therefore I can post with a relieved heart. By the time she saw this post, she would have forgetton about me, and I would have leave far from singapore. And i sincerely hope , you will understand. Althought I am heartbroken that she hates me to the max now, but afterall, I would have let her go sooner or later. This would hurt her more , if I am the original Benjin that treat her good. I am leaving , and me myself have no idea of when I would return. I dont want to waste any of her youth. She is nice. She is adorable. She dont suites someone who has a complicated background, a complicated life and a complicated himself. I choose and decided to hold you as tight and stress you that much as possible, so that I can make you think that I do not give u any freedom at all in this relationship.And gradually , you will have the urge to longed for freedom and want to let go as soon as possible. I managed at last to do that, and as expected, you do urge for the freedom u long wanted. I am glad. Instead of making you sad after the break up, I made you relieved and feels much more relaxed after we have break up. In love with a condition that pays with a high price. I dont meant to treat u that bad. I got no choice. I really dont wish to see you sad. I felt lonely. I got no one else to share my troubles with. All I could do , was to blog my troubles out. This is what hidden deep inside me that I wanting to say. To: My dad- Dont smoke too much, its bad for your health. And dont worry, I wont disappoint you. I will try my best to do well in everything. My mum- Dont overwork too much work, your heart is weak. You are my forever my favourite Mami ever. You never fails to pick me up from my failure when I am sad. I will miss you as well as your cooking. My sis - Dont always go pub and club dao late late ah. I will worry de u noe. If can, live for the fullest. Make your real love comes only once, and not twice. My fat fat aunt / relatives- Thanks everyone. You all have been doting on me alot. My yi ma - I hope that my cousin would treat you much much better, and would not always ask you for money. You mentioned that you will give me part of your assets, but i just want to say that, I dont need anything from you, I just want you to live happily. . Javier, Jace, Val, jaymus - Promised to be good kids and grow up healthily all rite . When I am back from Cananda, I hope that I can hear u all call me biao jiu. My secondary sch frens- Thanks for all the playful and cute memories that I spend together with u guys. My piano/ swimming /school teacher - Thanks for passing your knowledge to me , and guides me as a mentor once My music rehearsal teacher- Although I have known you for week, but sincerely, u are nice. Classmates( W47L) - I would not forget that we are so noisy till the whole lift is filled with out voices. Study hard guys ! Xinman - You are still my only one. I will love you always and forever. Dont overtired yourself ok. Winning is not important, what is more important is that U have tried your best afterall. Do remember to cover your blanket when its cold at nite. No matter what, just smile, and your day would be bright and warm. Je suis désolé que je ne pouvais pas marcher tout le voyage avec vous. It means, Sorry that I cannot walk the entire journey together with you. To Myself - Stay strong ! I just want to said that, I would miss you guys. I cant feel the sunlight anymore. Benjin has been dead since today. Totally dead.
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