Today was a great sunday morning.
Early morning, my dad went all the way to AMK to purchase my favourite Nasi Lemak.
I love the chicken wings there.
I couldn't forget the taste, and have been craving for it everyday.
Hmm, I dont think I am able to taste it again le.
Would a country like cananda sell great food like singapore does?
I am not at sides. Haha.
One is the place I have been born, and I have no idea how it looks like.
On the another hand, is the place that I have been breed, that I have plenty of frens and where my lovestory was made and written once.

Seriously, I would miss singapore.

I was wondering, if i am not born at cananda, what would happen?
I was wondering , if I do not need to take over the companies, would i be happier?
Wondering and wondering.
That is all about life. Its alrdy well-planned for me.
What can I do about it?

I have been fighting not to go back.
And from last year till now, they have been unhappily accept it.
But that comes with a hot condition.
I accept it.
It's because , I cannot let go her just like dat.
Eversince Nine January 2009, She is a part of me.

Some of you might be wondering, why did i make her feels tight, irritated about this relationship?
Haha. Its simple.
Not to let her get hurt.
I rather I am the one who suffers instead of her.

Let me tell u a real story instead.
When I jus noe amirul, everyone thinks that he look shag, slacker and worth of nth.
But to me, he is a nice buddy, my dota fren and also a nice fren to me.
He might look shabby to u all.
But do you noe that , he was once a very outstanding student?
No one noes.
Therefore, I felt weird. How could such a smart person look so shabby?

He told me his story.
His stead and him was very loving and he truely love his stead till today.
And one day , his stead family decided to migrate to Cananada.
And all of the sudden, he nid to accept this fact by a week.

He told me that , he cried for a total of 3 days.
And his eye became puffy till now. His hairstyle became emo-ed.
His uniform become shaggy and he dont care about life anymore.

Upon hearing his story, it strucked me.
Dont you think that , if you treat the one u love super nice and be understanding to them, it would cause a major impact to her , when she receive the news that u are leaving?

I am not going to ruin her.
I am not going to see her sad.
I decided to play the role of a bad guy.
I decided to make her hate me.

I felt hurt to treat her so bad.
At times, when I treat her good ,i told myself not to.
Becos this would make me feel much more sadder.

And at times, I wanted to tell her the truth.
But I controlled.
If you truely love her, I should keep this as a secret.

I guess she wont be coming for my performance.
Deep in my heart, I just want to say the song I am going to sing for my performance, " Only Love", would be specially dedicated to Oo Xinman.

I am glad, she hates me to the core now.
I would have no regrets leaving.

I better get going to watch my reborn now.
Guess its tough to watch at Cananda.



Signing off.
Enjoy your sunday everyone, tml is another day that we nid to mug again.

A word a week for myself to keep myself going and that is to - Stay strong !

:))