10 December 2009
Sunny thursday
1 day without her.
It has been a day since we are separated.
Thousand or rather endless tots raced passed my mind.
Be it a positive or a negative tot.
They are crowding around my whole mind and I do wish to stop them from hindering the decision that I made.
I know that everything would not be the same anymore.
I tried to pretent that what happen last night was just a terrible nitemare that I have ever dreamt of.
But sadly , it's not.
I should wake up from reality and face up to the facts.
I'm sorry for crying over you,because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,because I knew it would be a promise,I would never be able to keep.
I am in a dilemma.
I dunnoe whether there are chances or even little hope for the both of us to show one another what love is about, to play , to joke around, or even get to speak to her like before.
I do not have the courage to think about what the outcome or what the answer is going to be.
I am afraid.
Afraid that it would be another nitemare that would turns everything so true.
I felt sad. I felt dead when she said that she do not want to marry such a person like me.
How am I going to start all over again to win her heart back, to make her fall in love again?
How am I?
I am worried.
Worried that you have not reach home, worry that you did not take your dinner.
I picked up my hp several times, wanting to call you.
But I didnt, I put it back.
Becos I noe that I got no rights to interfere with your affairs anymore.
I don't know what to do now that we're apart.
I don't know how to live without the other half of my heart.
The part that hurts me the most,is knowing that I once had you and then lost you.
This is the biggest wound that I ever had.
I do not wish for anything much.
I just hope that when she is feeling sad or happy, she would think of me.
When she is happy, I hope to be the first person, she would share her joy with.
When she is sad, I am willing to lent a listening ear and make her smile back.
All I wanted is, to see you smile, to see that you are happy.
No matter what happens, I would promise to be the guardian angel that guides you through.
I promised.
HIM Benjin Lin Single Wants You dont need to know what he WANTS The DONT WANT You dont need to know what he DONT WANT He DONT LINK anyone His Past Tense
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