11 December 2009
Cold Friday
2 days without her.
It has been two day since we are separated.
I still cant get used to the kind of life without her in my life.
The memories still lies deeply in my mind , and in my heart.
I cant forget about her.
But I do want and trying to forget her.
The more I think of her, the more my heart ache.
No one would understand the love I put in , in this relationship.
Althought I might have given you nothing much in this relationship,
But I can tell you that , a sincere heart is all I have given you so far.
I felt my days covered with dim stars that do not shine.
It is just like a star losing its usual bright glow .
I noe I need you, I noe I love you.
I knew that I cant bear to let u go.
I do not want to let go of your hand , which I have been holding tight for the pass 11 months.
But I would control myself not to love you again.
I am afraid that I would leave wounds deep in your heart again.
It hurts me more to see you in pain.
I am wondering why,
Sometimes it is hard to say no when I really mean yes.
And why,
Sometimes it is hard to say that I want to be just your fren when I really want to be her boyfren.
And why,
Sometimes, it is hard to forget when I really can’t .
And sometimes, the hardest is to let go of you when I really want you to stay by my side.
It do really hurts to say goodbye to a person you love, knowing that life would not be the same without her anymore.
No matter how hurt I am to get over the facts for years or for life,
I told myself that as long as you are happy, I can get through this.
I find that no matter how loud I laugh, I am still not happy.
And no matter how hard I cry, the sadness inside grows.
I feel empty.
I do not need any jokes to make me smile .
I just need you to love me for all the pain to go.
After I have lost you , after we are separated, and after everything that have happen,
I realised that it is hard not to love you, it is hard not to care and it is hard to live without you.
HIM Benjin Lin Single Wants You dont need to know what he WANTS The DONT WANT You dont need to know what he DONT WANT He DONT LINK anyone His Past Tense
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